Don't bother reading...

[currently listenin to: the electric fan and the TV next door]



haaay....I got my grades already and I'm not happy.
I'm not really going to talk about THAT....maglalabas lang talaga ako ng sama ng loob.

Well....here goes...

Aaaaaaaaaaaah!!!! Bakit ka ganyan!?!?!?!! Kung may gusto kang mangyari, ba't hindi mo gawin?!?!!! Madali lang akong kausap...and I'm not the kind of person who holds grudges forever. If I see the effort, if I see the sincerity, I could forgive and forget. Yun nga lang, it's not that easy. Siyempre the trust will not be the same. But I could compromise. But, no, you opt to do the more cowardly thing (well, in my opinion, it's cowardly). And I don't really like that. That's why, hindi ako kumikibo. I'm not even replying to those stupid messages.
The thing is, I want to get this OVER with. Ang naweiweirdohan ako, in my part, is I actually kind of pity you, when I'm supposed to loathe you. Ewan ko lang, there may be "remnants" of the past or something, pero hindi ba ako magiging tanga kung ganoon nga? May halo na siguro 'tong pride pero ako yung nasaktan.
If you really did NOTHING wrong, sana you defended yourself. Sana you made an effort to reassure me. But no, pinaabot mo pa ng isang taon. Wala kang ginawa. Leche ka. Anong iisipin ko?
Ang ginagawa ko na nga nowadays is I'm kind of nagpapapansin in the sense na I'm sending some sort of psychopathic signals that you could approach me. Pero hindi. Wala ka talagang ginagawa. Kung a year ago, galit na galit ako sa iyo, time heals akalain mo, ngayon, very disappointed na lang ako sa iyo. O ayaw mo nun? If what you've said to me is still true, well, hindi ko siya nakikita. Sabi nila natatakot ka sa akin. Bakit ganoon? Kung nakausap mo ako ng isang taon, ba't bigla kang matatakot sa akin. That's bullcrap di ba....
Bahala ka...buhay mo 'yan. Nababahala ako pero problema mo rin iyan e.